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so, my family did went to a rally.

last night. ubi avenue 1. WP. ( i think, *chuckles*)

the crowd was HUGE HUGE HUGE.

so

what we could only hear was people buzzing and this machine .. that goes ufhgbjahdimcbdcnbcfodrfv

what i saw was pple above 45 years old.

no kids, i meant teenagers.

so singaporeans aaint political apathetic it’s the youths!(OPS, THIS IS JUST PURELY MY OPINION. IT MAY BE WRONG. PLEASE DONT SUE ME!)

so we said we’ll go another one instead, some other days.

i suggested tonight SINCE IT"S AT TAMP STADIUM. but gee, everyone’s so lazy(NOT ME, for the first time), so we’re all stucked here tonight.

it’s quite exciting, so my dear friends, if you happen to be free like me, please go down to at least one rally. Feel the atmosphere, join in the gossips, stand and cheer with the crowd. yes von! =))

okays. sigh. i think i’m e laziest bug on earth. there’s like alot to mug ofr hist but i’m procastinating. argh. oh i remember, i’m a lazy worm. ah. hahas.

ohoho. HOW CAN I FORGET TO BLOG ABOUT GG TO KBOX W MY SASHA today!?! =)))))))) hearts her loads. and honestly, she sings like damn good la. should go superstar.(maybe not superstar, cos even if you emerge the winner, SO WHAT!?) SERIOUS. no joking k. i can be her manager when she becomes a international-superstar. cos like when she sings, my hair stands. it’s so emo and solid. thumbs up!

honestly, i’m quite tired of these. ……………………. after much tots, i censored this part………………………………..give up.

i shall numb myself in books, books and more books.(notes too)

wanted to go down w mom, but my sis went down instead. argh. like. I’M ALREADY DAMN FREAKING SIAN LOOKING AT DAD WATCHING TV!!!!!!dont you dare ask me go study instead i want to do that later. maybe tonight till tml.

i dont like pple swearing as if it’s so okay-and-perhaps-cool-to-do-it. the thing is that, is NOT okay-and-perhaps-cool-to-do-it. they go like fuck. omfg. bloody hell, hokkien/malay/chinese vulgarities which is utterly crude/lowest class to me. shit, damn it’s okay. not like suck. — that one not acceptable too.

dontch ya think so?

let’s all wish sasher all the best for her accounting exam tml =)

hahas. cant agree more to it - tj so ks!

blah. have to summarise my 900+ PI to 500.

and, as i expected it to happen sooner or later(more sooner than later tho), my teacher brokedown in front of the class today.

she cried, stormed off, stopped at the door, came back and yelled, "you want me to get out or you get out!" THEN SHE LAUGHED, calmed herself down and continued teaching.

hmmm.

i seriously understand why she behaved in such a way.

i mean, miss sim, dt, mr ho and miss wong had been showing how tiring teaching could actually be. or perhaps rather, how tiring teaching my class could be.(fyi, i listed ALL my teachers)

my family intends to attend rallies. whee. so fun! =))

but how INTERESTING can our elections get. very. ah-huh. =)))

define freedom of speech. i want to know. cos i’ve got things to say but i know i dont have much rights to say it out THO we claim we have frrredom of speech. yah, right. rahhhrahh

sometimes, actually a lot of times!, i MISS MY AMATHS TUTOR very much. whenever i do maths. and i wonder if i ended in cj in his batch, if i became his fren, AAAAHHHH!!!

sosososo disappointing

soososososo stress

sosososo tired

sosososos mugger

sososososo confused

sosososos lost

sosososos fed up

sosososos satisfied with my weekends.

i actually slack like hell during weekends but work hard like shit during the weekdays.

should have a balance.

jia you pple. =)

have this urge to blog tho i dont really have much time cos there’s GP project later.

but do you know how friends drift apart?

i guess it’s the word ‘communication’.

lack of communication or communication breakdown=nv talk to each other=awkwardness barrier formed= this barrier would separate you and fren apart.

the first reason y we lack of communication - perhaps no time for each other. or no interest to squeeze time out for each other.

second reason - when i have problems, i dont dare to come find you to tell you.

reason 1 is pure shallow-ness, so shan’t talk about it. reason 2 is dangerous! cos i just read ting’s blog! so let’s talk about it.

this entry is to all who reads my blog.

when we meet up, we sure do have fun time together. we crack jokes, tease each other, eat long john together, go carnival together, celebrate birthdays together, it’s pure indulgence in each others presence cos we know we prolly wouldnt get the chance to do so (say) 1 more month later.

i have just realised as much as i miss my frens, when we meet up, we just be happy together. Even if we have sad stuff to share or whatever, knowing that we have an aim of ‘be happy together’, we tend not to tell frens about the sad side of our lives.

maybe, we just dont want to let others know the sad side of our lives, but i dont really want to be the last to know what happened that made my dearest ting so sad she thinks she alone. come on girl, we are just separated by tj’s and sa’s buildings! i would SERIOUSLY be there for you 24/7. just like Q, i really wished how much i could have supported you thru your rocky period when i heard the news.

to my dearest frens, dont keep mum when we meet up. catching up time is also to share your sorrows together. like how we cry in tk. we all do(as in crying)and what happens next? you find your dearest frens hugging and passing you the packet of fairprice tissues. =)

the worst thing  is i know you got problems but you dont share and pretend you dont have any problem.

just. JUST recall the last time you felt sad in tk. (to pc only) hahas.

who was there?

did we talk? we kept quiet. cos we know our presence is strong enough to help you pull you through your tough times.

honestly. to me, yes the presence of frens is strong. very strong. cos you know you have them even in times of blahness.

if we keep spending only happy times together and claim that we are friends. sorry. no i dont think so. i want to share your troubles and problems. cos i want you to share mine too. hahas.

alright.

it’s just so hurting to know how my frens just tear apart after sec sch over trival matters. i’ve got 2 pair of frens liddat alr lah.

separating into different schools now is a greater challenge for all of our friendships.

dont ya think so?

=)

happy birthday drea!!!!!!!!!!!!

=) awwwwwwwwwwww the celebration was great. since i was so darn bloody tired, the venue was perfect. itomi is cute. the fried fish was refreshing, the mee and pizza was best. the chickin was the tastiest. hahas.) thanks to uncle!

=)

most imptly. the company was great. like GREAT.

so. culinary today was a total bore. cos it was ice breakers. and it was very slack. cum the fact jess and me was like dead tired. jess gave up hopes on culinary. hahas. my bud! i aint giving up yet! the hands on part yet to come! =)

econs test. screwed it. blah. nvm, first time always like that.

but anyway. thankgod.allah.buddha.any other gods around, that yea. you know. i know my sis would tell mom, ‘wah, your daughter ah, uses the f-word like no body’s buisness’. For now, i cant really be bothered. experts said cursing helps one to relief stress and is healthy at times.

this is week is 1.40-am-sleep-and-5am-wakeup week. mon=gp, tues(slept at 10, ONLY EXCEPTION), wed=gp,econs(anyway, nice anyway. only i know, u dont. fcuk. see i’m so tired now i dont even make any sense) thurs=cca,dreabday,PI.

and i predict today is sleep-at-4am day. might not go sch tml. cos i’m having slight sore throat, watery eyes, body ache. sounds like flu, doesn’t it? and the fact ting and von went like, ‘eh, pon sports day tml’ the word ‘PON’ is just so tempting for a sick girl like me. i mean, if i were to plonk into my bed which i miss it dearly at 4am, wouldnt be like a living corpse, or what clarice would say a body w/o a soul.

and two pple came up to me within 3 days to tell me to sleep more cos i have got eye bags. great. perhaps they(the eye bags) didnt leave after the Os. i guess they are staying for quite some time.

i came back at ard 9.45pm and started doing PI at 10.00pm. it’s now only 10.47pm and my eyes are halved closed/opened.=) doing PI research while blogging cos i feel so sian just researching and reading and doing PI. signed out of MSN cos it’s a BEEG SOURCE of distraction.

while researching, i landed up at channelnewsaisa webby. gee, why cant the election day be on a weekday? why sat? and why on 6! i’m gg to hwa chong that day! idiot.

sat is like gone. no tp carnival cos have got to do gp project. =( have and must do well. cos i think i screwed the gp essay.

should i go sch? it’ like 3.45am? i’m waking up at 5am.. hmmm. after i end this entry pack bag. wheee. it’s 4am! i told you! cos even if i dont go, i can email miss wong my PI.

anyway, my PI IS 800+ words. no time to summarise. i wanna STOP HERE.

GOODNIGHT!

hahas.

expected.

but so jian. cheap. in chinese.

but okays, these people make our lives interesting.

fun. today. pw slacking period. was suppose to study econs test as instructed. but didnt. regret. cos now gotta rush.. hmm. GP, econs test and PI. fish.

anyway. so yah. fun cos. we actually sang songs that were so old and cheena. sang like nobody buisness.

but i think we were horrible singers. yes. hahas

luckily we were far from the canteen, far frm pple, pple who probably luff their heads off when they see us singing like retards.

i nv sing w my frens for centuries leh!

interesting.

american idol is good. they are superb-burb. all.

tml interesting. get to see interesting DT =) and culinary and drea’s celebration!

oh! and yayness. i got into culinary.

PLEASE dont even think too lowly of culinary. it’s a HOT cca. =)) 80 over pple signed up k, only 8 can make it. so PLEASE think twice before you go, ‘culinary?’ -with your brows arched.

so culinary, whoots!

Life is fragile.

as fragile as that of an ant’s.

we all know that. (i’m making an assumption that ‘we’ are all rationale to know this simple fact that life is fragile)

it’s something we cant control. 

only thing we can perhaps do is to live life to the fullest

AH big talk.

no, i mean to the fullest like it’s your last day to listen your mom nagging, your sister irritating you, your dad asking you to make a cup of coffee, last day to witness your dogging biting tissues you thought you threw into the bin ten minutes ago or even the last time to say how much you miss your friends cos you guys entered different schools.

i dont want to regret cos i was grumpy to my mom in the morning, i rebutted my dad the other day, quarrelled with my only sister, dont want to regret not stroking my dearest pet dog whenever i could have, dont even want to regret not telling a friend i miss the friend so much ever since we separated.

but i guess, even if we had all done this, it’s never enough.

cos we want more time to have w them.

as much as we fear death separates us so.. cruelly, it’s possibly the fastest way to end misery and pain our loves one are tolerating.

when you face such problems, what’s PW and PI to you?, what’s not getting an A to you?, i shall make an intectual guess and say it’s

nothing at all. 

CAN SOMEONE JUST SHOOT ME.

SIGINING OFF,
DUMBEST GIRL IN THE WHOLE WORLD.

whoever invented ’sorry’ just gave mankind another reason to do evil.

please just nod and agree with me.

hey!

aye-oh-one! 22nd! TPJC’s carnival! can celebrate lewis day too! =))

as much as i would want to curse PW and PI,

(Cos the consistent rejection of ideas-you-thought-it’s-workable-and-fun-but-sadly-it’s-not-practical is just so frustrating, you just feel like giving up brainstorming shit to score the 10% to enter to U.)

i wont. =)

cheers to PW and PI! wheee.

heard of reverse pychology? =) - Mr lam’s logic.