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i just had a bad and unnerving dream.

yikes. it’s about recieving a SMS from a GHOST. it went ‘fa lalala, i’m on my way up."

SCREAMS.

and i told my sister NV to send me this msg. cos i would scream at the sight of it. but of cos, she promised she would, tml.

OKAY, SO GUESS WHAT? hahas. i joined culinary and home making club!

WHEEE. cos i guess it’s really my passion to cook, bake-see my profile..yes. so if i give this interesting CCA a miss, i would regret. anyway drama has been boring tho the stage manager promised that it wouldnt. HAHAS.

so many things happened. so many thoughts. so many life questions- mrs goh would phrase it this way..’life questions’. mrs goh in tp.

for example: besides time(literally), what tells the time? - smell, yes. the freshest air in the morning, the sweetest smell at the start of the year, the winter smell on christmas eve night. music tells the time. you heard grace and daniel in the morning(in the past, sorry cos i dont listen to radios now). you know it’s somewhere back in the P6 year - 2002 - when you hear .. as i lay my love on you or show me the meaning of being lonely or even earlier bacck w as long as you love me. and for some reasons, whenever qing fei de yi plays on my mp3, i think back of the sec2 days. when pc sang. events tells the time too. your kinderland graduating item. your mushroom swiss burger fed by mummy after kinderland lessons. your chinese story telling competition in p2. friends party in sec2. basketball fad. speeches infront of all. reading nat geog. reading straits time.

dont ask y i had this question in my head. it just came. i asked pple ard. some didnt quite get it. but i hope u - anyone reading- understands after reading my ans. i hope it’s understandable.

hahas. i think i just realise SA promotes independent learning. not like mj or tj type that promotes mugging alot w the giving alot of notes. it’s good and bad. cos i see myself trying to adjust. spoon feeding notes is good. cos i like. but then again, the fact you search, print for YOUR own notes, there’s more.. ARGH to study. ahahahahas.

and SA is not a mugger sch. it’s quite similar to sec life. but there’s more to read up on your own. as much as i enjoy free periods- mt periods- i would rather they put it at the end of the day, so i can leave sch earlier. THOUGH my lessons end fairly early.

honestly the best class i ever had is TWOEEONE. BEST. PERFECT. then TPJAYCEE 06A01. THEN my later years in sec..

shall talk about my opportunity cost in choosing SA the nx time!!

did i mention i might join the alumni? - do you know it’s such a.. life long committment? - question posed to maine and clara. it’s like. are u ready to marry to the alumni?

it’s really very scary when i have a friend - A who looks, behaves, and SOUND like friend B. when A is from the WEST while B’s from the EAST.

alpha in SA resembles CLARA TAN in TKGS.

omg.omg. sometimes, i even feel like calling alpha, clara.

and i even feel like treating alpha, clara.

but it’s impossible.

they are totally two different person! and clara’s a lil more high and closer.. but EEE. so so freaky. REALLY..

it’s like.. clara’s voice is alr so unique enough, YET, alpha has it too!

i think i miss clara like shit whenever i see alpha, cos she reminds me of her. so sad. but sat. =)) would see MY CLARA TAN!!

i feel like joining soccer. really. but. i dont think i would. it’s three times a week, sats trg is at KOVAN!and the thing is. i dont want to spend time on my cca. very mugger statement. see, i’m alr having such a content-heavy combi..and besides that, there’s loads to catch up! i feel sososo stress gg thru the maths and hist notes. it’s argh. i mean if i were in tp, probably i would join, but it’s now in SA, far. very.

i want the cooking club. but it really sounds so.. cooky. i dontch noe. so think.. INTERACT. and alpha might join w me! hahas. omg.omg.

life in SA is unsettled yet. getting my timetable only on nx mon.

studies is my priority.

i saw nat goeg in lib today. =( miss lib sessions in tp. miss all my friends.

i wonder y must the one above give me so much good friendship in TP.( i know there’s a prob w e sentence structure..=P) makes me really sad when i think back of them.. when i think that we can nv be together again. it’s like. i would tell myself "what a pity, a waste. not to be in the same sch w those friends"

sighs.

arghs.

DANGER

well i cant forget this evening

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Or your face as you were leaving

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but i guess that’s just the way the story goes.

i always wanted to tell …

sasha that i enjoyed the free concert though i dont really know the songs he sang that night. i didnt enjoy his songs, i enjoyed your company. =)))) and i’m missing you now! =)) - just met you online. jia you for projects! evol ooy

pc that actually i missed you guys alot. sat - 11/3/06 maine’s birthday was great.  a pity not all 7 at one time. but still great. tired but still great. i see care, concern, sincerity and love. =)))

pc that i enjoyed mugging on mon - prolly the last time in this week. i alr so sad on mon night cos i dont know when can i see all 7 again. april? that’s too far.

06a01 that we need every one for gathering. we aint 06a01 if only some are coming down. having just one missing is just so strange! gee, contridicting, cos i cant join you guys on fri. will try to rush down from sentosa.. try.. yes i would. i miss laughing, slacking, learning, yawning w you guys.

hockey girls in tp i miss you! shida! steph! fatin! i miss your company! i miss trg. i guess i would never touch the game any more. what a pity. but at least i ever tried so no regrets. i know u guys nv know this blog exist but just want to ask how’s trg W/O ME!? hahas. =)))

cookie that, i love you no matter how much fleas are there on your bod. i want to grow old with you. wait for me. i want my kids to play with you like i love to. wait for me, please.

mom, i’m sorry i made u wait for 15 mins. i was wrong.
dad, i’m sorry to say that your file is ugly. i was wrong.
the one above, thank you for the bestest, loveliest parents i can ever ask for.

so back to reality, i need alteration, shopping. but mugging FIRST. so meeting maine after she collects her uni. then han and drea coming later. =))

GOSH. IT’s ALR TUES! =((

desperate housewives is freaking nice. i wanna be one in the future! =)) so fun.

who’s my rock? =)

actually, i wanted to blog about what we did yesterday, cos it’s so interesting. budden, i’m making chocolat and at the same time, MOCHA for my parents. AHAHAHAs.

SO FUN.

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shall be more professional and blog later.

i’m the ONLY ONE in the whole level taking

h2: hist econs maths. h1: geog.

holy shit and cows.

it’s kinda of OKAY. i’m not worried that i’m the only one. i’m WORRIED about the fact that if i dont do well, i’m the ONLY one. geddit? nvm.

eilania and i drew a conclusion on a certain type of girls. they are all freaking weird.

weirdos.

my resolution for this year and next(see, i plan ahead.) is to study HARD like SHIT. no life, NVM. i DONT CARE.

NERD, I OSO DONT CARE.

FAT, I OSO temporarily DONT CARE.

i want to aim for psychology in the criminal field and resort and hotel management in uni.

i’m happy! there’s a bus that takes only 30 mins to my sch. THIRTY MINS. EVEN FASTER FROM HOME TO TKGS.

WHOOTS.

and WHOOTS, tml meeting pc.

eilania saw my uniform and we laughed. AHAHAHAs.

start of the day wasnt that good. ended up lost in the JUNIOR school. to adora and evelyn, aint i a loser.(of cos, not! =)) second time. and i bet it’s not gonna be the last.

so today’s admin day where they talked about the subject combi. they didnt really talked. they said they expected all to the know about the topics and stuff cos they expected all to have alr attended first 2 months. which is bullshit. it’s impt kay, to know what you have to mug for the next 1 plus years. first sign of slacking teachers.

ended at 11.45am. wheee. so early! but tml they ending at 7.30pm. i mean, it’s sort of early alr. but two thing’s kinda of a disturbance. firstly, i don’t stay ard there, i take an hour plus to reach home. secondly, it’s a.. PT day, they call it the Induction Programme though. I don’t even know what’s Induction. perhaps only in the physics term.

i don’t even know why it’s so scary. my ogl went, "guys, tml would be strenuous. So if there’s any prob w e girls, you must help them."

holy cow!hahas. i hope hockey in tp helps. if not, hahahas.

they prefer lenej then ganf iuc. there goes the only remaining chinese element in me.

hahas, i’m the cut off of sa! i’m gonna work hard. and mug like shit. in the lib yea eilania!?!!

though we were only allowed to leave school only at 12.45pm, eilania and me went straight home at 11.50am. walked out to the gate- 12.05pm, waited for bus till 12.12pm. she reached ard 1pm? me, One-thirty pee yem.

did i mention the tkgs population in sa is FOUR! excluding christine - dsa girl.

thank godness, there’s eilania ard w me. IF not, it’s FAR WORST being in tp.

i’ve got the most fiercest lady teacher as my OG tutor. but i like it. it’s kinda interesting. =)

it’s no longer green(tkgs’ and tp colour - though i thought tp’s colour is blue) but a sea of white and blue.

omg. took so many. many. many photos. more than a hundred w a-oh-one.

then omg, alexi made notes for the class! A BOY actually did that. to be specific, a VS guy did that. VS should be proud of him. hahas.

then omg, me adora and evelyn had a fantabulous time! we went to SA. it’s so funneh. we went w the aim of taking a pic at SA. BUT i only realised WE DIDNT when we were walking out. then we luffed like fools.

i tell you ah, darn funneh. it like this. this. –> FUNNEH

on the way back: adora and me. wanted to sleep, cos it would take us another hour to reach. but then, both of us realised we couldnt sleep tho we were tired. why? we were both confused, lost and were thinking aloads. ahahas. u dunnoe lah. only we know.

that day, we were sharing tht how our parents express their love for us. mine fared exceptionally well. - i wasnt surprised. =)

after that- back to tp for hockey. physical. i like running when e sun shines on me. then i perspire. - nice feelin’. the guys are just so stupid and childish. they kept saying us, why run so slow? hurry! - whatever lah, ***. - it’s not a bad word. just sensitive word.

then, the four J1s started taking pics. hahas. then w the J2s. so fun! mr sahmat too! hahas.

so here am i, sounding so happy but infact, not really.

you see, what for appeal to ahem. if i appeal to ahem, i need to serve ahem like shit. then my studies? i would alr be slower than the rest, now w prob something to commit to, i would struggle. like shit. and tonnes of 8 and 9 pointers aint gonna give up on ahem. it’s tough competition.

but, it’s a dream. shouldnt give up any chances.

sigh.

jiejie(please note i did not use Sasha =P) - i love u. u know why. hahas. u always make me feel so stupid. SIGH.

-will i ever see, you smiling back at me