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  Yesterday, Sasha, James and Jenel met up at Bugis for dinner. Jenel was late. She reached at 7.15pm when she arranged the dinner to be at 6.30pm. She felt bad, especially when her mom told her Sasha had a headache. However, Jenel only wanted to leave after completing the task assigned to her. The three of them were on the waiting list of Seoul Garden. Thank god, they waited only for less than 15 mins for seats. Though Jenel was tired, cos she was out since 7 in the morning, she enjoyed herself like shit cos Sasha and James were good fun. Jenel at the same time was troubled about the nx day’s prog. To work till? Friend’s house? Bbq? …………………….what ever it was, it was really good to meet up with james. It was years, or was it never?, ever since we had a time like yesterday.

cherish.

"i don’t know how to treasure. i express my love for family and friends. But, is that treasuring? I treat them nice. Is that treasuring? How do you actually… carry it out.. act it out.. how do you treasure?"

it’s never enough.

Would you be nice to provide one good reason why should i pierce my ears after 16 years? Why should i lose that piece of meat? Aint that cosmetic surgery?

Pierce. Cut. Rip.

today’s prefects gathering was a sad case. clara, you should have been there! you the organiser should have been there throughout! WHY GO FOR LESSONS? sad not cos of the turnout, but the people.

they actually asked why we are leaving early.

was it me or them?

miss. or rather missing. fatima, sharon, nadiah, wanjie, charis, hian yin, jessie, .. pple once so close. though i met up with some of them, i’m still missing them. weird.

did pc ever know we have nv meet up since conrad. a month. we used to eat breakfast daily. like. hahas. i dont even do tt w mom or sis or dad. cos i would be darn grumpy in e morning. but it was nv w pc and wera! missing them. apologies for my absence today.

will pc stay?

k.

i’m gg off to msia at 10.

to all my dearest friends who are reading this,

should i meet w an accident, robbery or .. whatever and die half way.. (hahas)

please tell the police or whoever is supposed to be incharged.

use all my money in my bank, .. oh and my pay(s)

for my one and only,

dearest cookie’s life expenses.

=)

oh yah, and i love u people loads.

*sheesh, is this a will?*

that day..At pp’s overhead, a quite old lady walked up to me and asked me for coins. she said she doesn’t have any to go back home. since she approached. i gave her. all my coins in my wallet. it wasn’t alot. it was just nice. 60 cents. then we went separated ways. I went down the overhead and wanted to board the 31 bus. then, tada! no more coins left. just realised before giving the lady the 60 cents worth of coins, i had no more money in my ezlink and was only left w 60 cents and a ten dollar note in my wallet. then i went darn! but i had a gd laugh.

that day.. i went sakae w my sister. felt happy and excited tho it wasnt my first time. the movement of plates just excited me..i took five plates at one go. then made used of the comp to order the side dishes. so excited again! click. click. click ‘oh this one say it’s a must-try for veggie lovers!’. click. then. too full. sis was smart. she said ‘let’s just eat the top of the sushi, the rice part put it aside’. So we ended up being warned twice abt food wastage and the ‘veggie-lover’ thing. wasn’t really a must try. couldnt eat tht so i put strips of the veggie on different stacked plates.

that day .. i saw my fren w her bf. then i told sis.. hey! that’s simin(for e.g.) and her bf! .. as if my sis knew simin …and in the end, it was simin that heard and turned her head back. *embarrassed* - simin was just an eg here. dont take it for real. =) -

that day, i worked at the shoe department. the staffs went like xiaomei here and xiaomei there. lols. and there was this pregnant lady buying shoes for the kid. seeing tht she was pregnant. i went the extra mile(yes, i shld be awarded for being the best staff) to help her kid try the different shoes. and, so nice, she went: "girl, let AUNTIE try for you. be good girl, AUNTIE is helping you. QUICK say thanks to AUNTIE". shit. i need a makeover. that day too, mom appeared beside me and went: can i have this size pls’ =) love her. the following week, i had a visit from von and amy. lol. von looked gr8. w amy beside her, she looked even more like a rich career women w her maid. lols. thanks von!

that day, i cried so much in tk like i cried when my aunt passed away.

that day, ‘may i speak to lu *** **** ?’ ‘ .. Your appeal has been successful..’ - Future changed. Yet to be finished changing. =)

that day, my first time in yishun. i went to the JC. it was the long journey. couldnt be more grateful. to whoever made it possible. of cos to dad to. =)

i packed TJC’s orientation package. today.

it’s the whole load.

damn tiring and .. saddening.. a little pissed off.

it’s like.. hello. TJ?

Voyage. Voyage. Voyage. Voyage into Temasek Junior College. A Temasek Experience. Uniquely yours.

There was a divider. notebook. foolscape. collar pin. file. shirt. and a white thing

Left work at 8. tired. i stood since 2. 2pm till 9pm.

tired. and. tired of thinking so much.

it’s like. k.

i’m over w the poor amath prelims result.

i’m over w poor hmt prelims result.

i’m over w poor geog prelims results.

i’m over w poor prelims results(after moderation)

i don’t want to have anything to do w that ‘poor stuff’ anymore.

and here. today. i have a poor PAE result cos of the poor amath prelims result, poor hmt prelims result, poor geog prelims results and poor prelims results(after moderation).

it’s like. when am i given a new opportunity? To start fresh. like really, again.

and even if i end up at the JC where it’s 22 MRT stops away from my home, i don’t want to resent about the fact i, perhaps the only one from my school, have ended up in that JC which accepts the worst.

Mr Ng once told someone who got twenty points.. ‘Can end up in SR de, you think SR so high standard ar. Do you know Y***** is the only jc that accepts 20 points? Wouldn’t end up there, don’t worry.’

I cant help, resenting. Should i start having this feeling, i would definitely suffer. For the next three months. So why? von said, ‘Go in with a positive mindset’. I do not even have the right to resent. i did extremely badly. that’s the fact. who cares about your effort? it’s about the brains and luck. the paper. the marks.

i’m trying not to sense stupidity in me once i step into that JC. i’m trying hard to have a positive mindset but i cant. Teach me how to. I don’t even think anyone can teach me. The whole world can encourage me, advice me. But when it’s the actual thing, i’m gonna be there alone. Doing it. Isn’t life like that?

Some asked if i’m okay. they sensed my fustrations.

Some didn’t ask but told me abt themselves. they were overwhelmed w their own excitment.

Whatever it is, i’m still trying. Hard.

i want to sleep.

for three whole months. i’m not greedy. that’s enough.

All endings are also beginnings. We just don’t know it at the time.

it’s just gonna be a normal day.

where i wake up.

eat quakers w the straits time and cookie staring at my breakfast.

then i bathe.

then go to work.

then probably if have chance, check PAE result.

then POOF.

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my life’s changed. My future(for first three months only) is set.

so….. so. amazing.

My poor mom. She’s sick.

She self-medicated yesterday. And was actually allergic to that pill. (or was it pillssss)

Her face SWELLED.

Then. *grins*  Since dad wasnt home yet. i went to msg him.

With my mom’s phone. *grins-widely*

i went.." honey, i need you!… I’m sick. Terrible’

‘..i need you..’

hahas. my dad replied - ‘ok’

What a normal reply! Perhaps that’s the normal way mom msges him.

i cant believe i’m watching Full House. I actually called clara’s mom cheena cos she watches it.

And. I cant believe maine’s away AGAIN. as in .. her hols nv seem to stop. this girl ah, lolx. She was back from camp a few days ago. and now. she off. to hong kong. but lolx. at least her second last msg to me was..’ will get xmas presents there for you all’

=). that’s enough.

joking.

yah, right. Joking only.

Got it all rote?!!

good. i’m prepared. =)

Prepared to be the most hardworking sec 4 during this hols.

joke 1: i’m afraid of ladders!!

- maybe cause i’m pathetically short. don’t feel.. secured when i’m lifted 3m(or more) above the ground. It feels..like you’re dropping. and it means breaking your limbs and the worst part. you end up in an awkward position w your head on the ground, your legs probably still on the ladder step, then your hair, hand and…..

joke 2 : i’m working in a shoe department!!

GREAT! PERFECT! I NEED A LIFT. a minature one. that elevates half level at one time. erm. URGENTLY! THANKS.

i cant believe. i’m reading. i’m desiring to buy books and books and books!

Actually, not that i think that i’m great. But. before reading, i have already knew how to cherish love. i felt that there wouldnt be a need to educate me on it. i don’t need to go up to heaven to get enlightenment. (No, maybe i need for certain aspect. Like, why am i so short?) Before reading, i already knew that how i can affect more than 5 people - who can be a complete stranger or even a person from the past. i feel so, aH! this author has wrote out what i have spent my entire life thinking. I mean, yea. But, how i wish time could just pause for everyone, at everyone’s most happy moment. Wouldnt it be perfect? What’s wrong to be a perfect human? Why not? (i’m showing the imperative need of being enlighten. contridict. tsk.)

I have a strong attraction to green.

A -> START

1. Go Cashier. third level. wad number??

2. ‘I’m Sundra’s promoter’ - then they will carry on w e procedures, hand me the card and name tag. Ask me for twenty.

3. head on to the sercurity, they take my stuff. i’ll need to check the number on the band and stuff. go up 4th floor. place stuff. come down 3rd floor.

4. Scan at customer service then cashier and start work

B ->> LUNCH

1. Go Cashier scan.

2. Go Customer Service scan.

3. Take stuff frm sercurity. go up 4th then 1st.

C ->>> AFTER LUNCH

1. GO up 4th level put stuff then 3rd level. Give sercurity my stuff.

2. Scan card at customer service then cashier.

D ->>> END

1. Go Customer Service scan. Go Sercurity take stuff. Go 4th level then all the way to the 1st.

2. Head to the main entrance, up to third floor get back my twenty.

E ->>>>> GENERAL

1. To look for shoes. Look for the number.

2. Baby shoes : Sizes : 13, 13.5, 14, 14.5, 15 and 16

QUESTION????????????

1. What if i want to drink water or pee during working hours?

2. What other brands do i help?

Thanks Ting. and ANYWAY your fren. has a nice name. =)

wanted to keep more in suspense.

but anyways.

he’s wad von said.

‘mr nice guy opp. parkway parade.’

SEE! EVEN VON SAID HE’s.. MR NICE!!! means he’s really nice. lols.

oh wells. someone teach me the art of giving up.