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thank god i didn’t die.

my blood was boiling i was afraid it reaches the gaseous state.

thank god i didn’t die as a result of lack of blood.

yes. my dearest school is having an internal decay and yours sincerely assure you the continual decline of XXXX if nothing is done to remove the as*es here. sorry.

SOURCE B

memories for today will be always be with me for it’s burnt into my brains.

This was 2004.

This is on the 25th day in September of Man’s 2005th year

It was 8am in the morning. i prayed hard for the curse to go away, for it always had to rain, ALWAYS. Appreciated the works of nature and the fickle minded weather we have in here. It didn’t take long for the sun to appear. It was high up in the blue canopy… or rather.. azure blue sky with specks of mongolia. HAHAs. cliches. maine knows it too.
IN short. it was. hot. sizzling hot. like.. HOT!!

We arrived and settled down at our usual spot. then, we asked for the ball - to play volleyball. Yeah, we were acting pro.

We somehow expected a standard volleyball, but we’re..hmm…surprised? don’t know..by ting’s multi-colour ball of 5 cm in radius. Tried playing w e ball, but, due to the lack of skills, it was difficult to continue the volleyball game for … the ball lands on the grd after every serve.

Interesting Part 1: someone served the multi-colored ball, MAINE hit back. But the ball went side-ways and landed on the coconut tree beside her. It hit the leaves and the coconuts. It dropped down due to gravity and "TONG!" - it had a hefty fall onto a man’s head! *it was continued by the out burst of horrible and apolegetic laughters*

Continued w the game but brilliant von suggested soccer so as to refain ourselves from…throwing our faces out into the sea. Great idea! But, the soccer game only lasted less than 15 mins and we were back to the sandy beach w dai dee.

Had a splendid lunch as everyone brought something. Nicely decorated fried rice, potatoe salad, hot dogs, sandwich, water, fishballs.. i think we ate more than we played. Nono, we did something more than eating. It was sun tanning.

Interesting part 2: Drea’s mouth was stuffed w food, when she wanted to say there was fish balls, she ended up saying.. Hee-bawl!

We tanned under the sun who generously shone it’s rays on us. THANKS.
We flipped, sang, played water-sea water. We chatted, drank, ate more. Was meaningful and enjoyable to just waste time w my dearest frens. =)

We talked about ourselves, our ambitions, people, schools.. hahas.

Bathed, cleared the rubbish and scramed.

Bathing was interesting cos it was only then all found ourselves burnt. Some satisfied. Some not. Some regretted the damage we did to our skin.

Poor han. they were calling her black instead of the pleasant word "tanned"

Drea n han n ting headed home. Maine, grace, von and me went to citylink to buy evelyn’s present. then, grace went to meet up w her parents while the 3 of us took the train home.

not sure how’s the rest surviving, maine, drea and mine’s bad. Drea’s having prob slping normally for her back is badly burnt. maine’s feeling radiation. while yours sincerely cant really think properly for my entire head is hot to the extent… i cant win pictionary w maine and drea! hahas.

"when will we be coming back?"

"After Os!"

"When will we be coming back after the time we come after Os?"

"nah..dont’ ask!"

What if you know that you’re left with 3 days, 36 hours more, to be in this world?

Who would you truly want to see, be with and do what?

Would you cry? Cause you’re left with so much undone, left with stuff you want to complete before leaving this world?

Would you hug your loves one tightly cause you know you can never?

Would you allow yourself to sleep? For it might be wasting just another second?

Would you tell your love ones to buy.. XXXX ..this set of number for 4-D next week? Cause you would prolly have the ‘power’ to allow XXXX appear as the top prize next saturday.

Would you forgive or ask for forgiveness at your deathbed? Most people would. Cause guilt would have haunted them for their entire life.

Would you go somewhere out of S’pore to take a ride on the rollercoaster cause you have nv done that? . And that there aint any in S’pore.

Would getting to TJ be that important?

Would you type "hey guys. i’m leaving (for good). take care~" click "Send to Many Option" and send to all your friends in your contacts. So that they can contribute some money during your funeral and help lessen your family’s cost on your funeral.

or.

would your just tell your daddy, mummy and sister, "i Love you" for the last time and end your life immediately, like NOW, so you wouldnt need to pull through the 36 hours and think of so much.

Goodbye and take care. May you be happy in where you would be. Thank you for giving me the best dad i can ever have. The only thing i can thank you.

If ever a boy

stood on the moon.

all the heavens would call him angel round

stop the tears from troubled skies from falling

if ever the river could whisper your name

would the choices you make still be the same

like the flower that dies from angry rain

why do we hurt ourselves

where is the love?

If there’s one thing i learnt about prelims, it’s gonna be that
Dreams are created to give hopeless people hope.

k. tuition was suppose to be at pp.

den was informed tht it’s now at bedok.

oh. wth.

thank god didnt left too early for pp. if not. i would prolly be half way there. if not. would haf to head for bedok and reach there too early for lesson.

cheated my feelings.

Couldn’t really study chem. was kind enough to help dad w some computer typing work. argh. and he said i could do it since i was bored? omg. he thought i was bored? nvm. wanted to help anyway, so wadeva, dad’s more impt than chem and prelims and os.

hur.hur.

the exams aint here yet but yours sincerely have started to plan my post o level activities.

hur.hur.

nvm. it’s a motivation anyway.

and to P.C.

let’s hope prom night is at some hotel so we can carry out our plan of booking a rm for the night.
let’s hope it aint gonna be some ballroom.

*dreaming*

yes. superstar’s results are out and mr kelvin is our superstar.
hmmmmmm…. dont wish to comment but agreed to what dad said.

"Nowadays, the teenagers just like to see monkeys jumping on the stage. A true entertainer need not have the fancy costumes, the looks or the moves. He just need one thing. His voice."

f.y.i. the monkeys.. he was referring to some taiwanese boy band my sister had earlier attended their concert.

anyway, to who is the winner, i do really hope that they would make big in the future. esp to their fans, pls support them and don’t allow the history of our SI winners’ to happen to them. i mean, like you see, what’s happening to our SIs? Losing weight? Hello, you guys were suppose to do something to our local industry. syl’s suo yi is darn nice!!so ya. don’t just die down k.

Had fun during tuition on sat w mayyee and mel khoo.

with our bubble teas. hur.hur.

enough said.

And you can tell everybody
This is your song
It may be quite simple
But now that it’s done
I hope you don’t mind
I hope you don’t mind that I put down in words

Prelims.

*faintsfrantically*

Can’t really say much. but…..

English was bad. bad as in cant really score and hoping for a pass(..alright, i meant a good pass.. who wants to fail anyway??!!)Compo was normal. like. normal means..no good. Cos my usual compo is … no good!?? Then lord! Compre. Was.. disgusting. E maths. no complaints. paper was tough for me. But what can i say? i practically gave up since june? i mean, no results with my efforts, so why work hard? Didn’t prepare much for it. and darn. the first qn in the second lot.. was in tys. i did. cricled the qn no. to prepare to ask maine or ting in the morning. but. guess wad? didnt. SS. satisfied w SEQ. but spent too much time on it, couldnt do sbq properly.. like really analysing w your heart.. bleah. actually i enjoy doing sbqss(yeah, i do like..) .. just that.. there weren’t enough time!!so.. means… ss is a 50 percent good?!! aint that like a pass only!!

I guess.. i had a lot to say..

But. i guess, we humans cant never get satisfied w stuff too. like even if we did our best, we still want more. Greed?

And not that i did my best ah.. was just making a comment.

Actually, i think, whatever i do, the thing that most worry me is…
How my parents will feel? like they have done so much for me, will i disappoint them? Can i make them proud w me in.. ITE, poly? (not that ITE or poly aint good.. it’s that my parents prefer JCs..)

My mother who always make sure i get sufficient sleep and good food, listens to my geog population policies even when she was working..cos i called her to listen to me and ss’s housing emphasis… staying up the night to accompany me before my ss exams when dad and sasha wasnt ard…

My dad who always msges me "Nvm! Go home n sleep! Have a gd rest!" After my exams when i usually sent "Bad.. couldnt…", who stays up till 1+ w me when i mugged till morning for the block cas, who always made sure i will remember to on my rm lights, my air con’s temp aint 18, who always tell me not to compare w others and just do my best, who always says "Read the instructions.." since i had pri schs exams till my prelims and i guess for the future too…

My sister who always teaches me to study smartly and gives me the moral support, who understands me the best for she is only 3 years older, who always comforts me of my uncertain future, who discuss history’s MIF w me, who have been tolerating my temper since god knows when….

It’s all the same. ;). You watch superstar? Derrick? He cried and commented that he had nth for his parents to be proud of.

Or maybe it’s just me and derrick!

hahas.

Grace. Jia you. Don’t give up. You still aint at the end of the race.. don’t give up.